I am surrounded every day by a reminder of my own personality, scraps of history, and marks that may appear in my future. I am surrounded by a reflection of my labor and where it has brought me. I am surrounded by my own failure and the uncertainty of how it is solved. And in it, some contract I have with myself, — my will to fight. To become more deeply engaged and focused. To turn away, or turn toward; and hope I am making the right choice. Saying yes to one, is saying no to another.